You are all bad women! Don't come over!-Chapter 451 - 437

"You sit down for a bit, I'll go get you a glass of water... Ah, I forgot to buy some fruit on the way back..."

Returning home, Shen Mochen prattled on as he took a bottle of water from the fridge for Han Muxue.

"There's no need to pity me anymore..."

Han Muxue took the water with a murmur, head hung low. The light in the living room was dim, and her fringe cast a shadow across her face.

"What did you say?" Shen Mochen asked in response.

"I know... you pity me, I'm sorry to you."

Han Muxue's hands shook as she clenched the water bottle, almost unable to hold it. She seemed to be straining to speak, but her voice was so faint that it was almost inaudible unless listened to carefully.

"What's wrong, I don't feel like you have done anything to apologize to me for." Shen Mochen gently caressed Han Muxue's cheek.

Han Muxue shook her head vigorously; her hair flew about: "Don't touch me, listen to me first... Anyway, she has already told you..."

"Who told me?" Shen Mochen asked.

"Her."

"Who?"

"It's..." Han Muxue pursed her lips, seemingly struggling to say it, and stiffly mentioned her, "My mom."

"She actually hasn't told me anything..."

"Don't lie to me, I know, you know it all!" Han Muxue grew agitated, then her head drooped dejectedly again, "I know, it must have been her who told you... You're not at all surprised."

She indeed didn't tell me anything... Shen Mochen thought to himself. But he did not contradict her this time; he did indeed know what Han Muxue wanted to discuss, although he had only guessed it.

"Even if I knew, what about it? I don't think you're at fault."

"Don't you think I'm ridiculous? Like a rat, hiding in the dark, stinky gutter to attack her; she doesn't care at all, it's only me who does!" Han Muxue's expression twisted, "But it's so unfair. Don't you think it's unfair? Why... why... why!"

Shen Mochen tried to console her: "Muxue, listen to me..."

"No, you listen to me!" Han Muxue quickly interrupted Shen Mochen, "I know, I must be a joke to you now. I'm just jealous of her. Because I got hurt in her mother's dance class, I crazily envied what she is today, babbling like a villainous clown... I know! I know... A dark character like me would even be the villain in Magic Girl. She is the protagonist of this world, she is the good person, and I'm the bad guy!"

Shen Mochen embraced Han Muxue with a heartache: "How could you think like that? You haven't done anything wrong; it's their family who owes you an apology. You're the victim, and victims are not in the wrong."

"Listen to me, listen to me!" Han Muxue, crying, pushed Shen Mochen away, and wiped away her tears, "I'm just a despicable villain, getting carried away with the slightest bit of success. I was very scared at home, and got along with them fine. But after my awakening, I immediately sought revenge. I don't know why I spoke to them in that tone. I was a triumphing petty person, bossing around my parents the moment I got a chance! I know I was wrong, I'm sorry, I'm sorry... It was the same earlier, snooping on others like a cockroach, weirdly smug about it, even though they've never looked at me - just wallowing in a delusion of victory! Hahaha, it's so disgusting!"

Han Muxue became louder as she spoke, finally breaking down emotionally and crying out loud.

"Don't think like that, don't think like that. I think you're cute, there's nothing wrong with that..."

"I'm just a coward, a fool, a wastrel! I resent them for favoritism, yet I just had to spend all the money I earned! I deliberately wore my finest, most expensive clothes in front of them... serves you right for how you treated me before!" Han Muxue laughed and cried simultaneously, her expression woeful, "But I didn't dare to really spend it all, I still gave them some money, I was afraid they'd abandon me. If they think I don't give them money, that I'm useless... they won't care about me anymore! How will I manage then? Laughable, isn't it? It's so ridiculous to live like this! I'm just a wastrel, I'm useless, I can only fill my ego with money, keep up my bullshit pretense..."

Shen Mochen didn't know what to say; all he could do at that moment was to quietly hold the other person.

Han Muxue lay her head on Shen Mochen's shoulder and wept, hands clenched tight.

"I know you never liked me from the beginning, everything as a child was just joking. I know you liked the girl who slept in the bed next to ours; she was your first love, right? You were worried I'd disturb her rest, so you'd talk to me on purpose, to make me happy. I've been deluding myself... I'm sorry to you; I know you're not a jerk, I've been exploiting your sympathy, tying you to me. I know, compared to my despicable self, Cai Yuncui and Xia Qingrou are better! I've wanted to say this for a long time, but I didn't know how to start!"

Shen Mochen softly said, "I think you're good too, I think you're good too, I think you're good too."

"I'm not good at all, not gentle, not considerate, can't take care of others, and I'm a cripple..." frёewebηovel.cѳm

"Stop calling yourself a cripple; I don't want to hear that word. Muxue, believe me, one day I will make you stand up."

"There's no need to comfort me, you're just too kind a person, so you get exploited by others... I don't even understand my own feelings. I tell you I don't want you to ruin the relationship between Xia Qingrou and Cai Yuncui, but I don't know how much of that is genuine, and how much is just crazed jealousy when I see you close to them, so I find an excuse... Haha, hahaha, hahaha..."

As Han Muxue cried, her lips turned pale,

"Let's break up, I'm sorry to you; I can't keep making mistakes. You're a good person, and I know I don't deserve you. You don't have to pity me anymore, and don't worry about feeling awkward when you see me in the future. I'm going to retire early... As a cripple like me, I can apply for early retirement. I've already decided to retire, I'll talk to the captain, she'll let me through..."

"Do you want to break up with me?" Shen Mochen was stunned.

"I'm just a triumphing scoundrel, both cunning and shameless... you, you deserve better..."

"I don't want that!"

Shen Mochen declared, word by word.

He had finally said it. When he broke up with Catherine, he hadn't said it; he hadn't said it when breaking up with Xia Qingrou either.

But now, he had finally said it.

Why is it that you just get together when you want, and break up when you want?

"I don't want that!" Shen Mochen repeated, "And I will make your legs recover..."